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A Typical Summer Week - Emails
Dramatis Personae Ivan, Rasa	2013-06-28 A few emails over the course of a week.
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FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Sat, June 22, 2013, 10:55am SUBJECT: News Oh, Ivan. Apparently, the giant bugs destroyed City Hall. I am so very upset about this. I don't know how to or who to talk to about this. :/ R FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Sun, June 23, 2013, 6:21am SUBJECT: Re: News I have looked at the news when I came home. Does anyone know why this happened? I still do not know why I let myself be taken. I know I was not thinking clearly but why did they want me to come? Maybe I made Thea unhappy and this is why she did this? I am sorry, I only have questions and not answers. Is Shelby not there to talk to? Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Sun, June 23, 2013, 9:57am SUBJECT: Re: News Shelby moved to the city before we were released. I only see her now on weekends. Things have been bad. There was no party. There are just unhappy people. I have't felt like talking. I am mostly sleeping. Did you see the other news thing? I think Peter derailed a train to help Jim stop some asshole from destroying the train. They say Thea is in custody. I don't know if anyone can talk to her. Sorry about the disjointed thoughts. I will be heading back to school soon. I will talk to Peter when I see him. Hope he is not arrested too. Please do not worry about whether or not you made Thea upset. It is not your fault. Even if your presence pacified her, it is not your responsibility to lose your free will to this person so that things don't explode. Your free will and your mind are very special and important to me and I will fight everyone for your right to be you. I really will. I know you don't like the idea of me fighting, but some things are worth fighting for. You are worth fighting for. Please. Don't. I am very angry at Jackson for suggesting you spend time with her. It is hard to be around him right now. It's like being around my parents. I know he meant well, but he was hurtful in ways I cannot explain. Why would you tell a kidnapper they could have their victim back? Why would anyone do that? I... I just can't understand. I am sorry. I should not be angry. There is just so much going on and I'm hurt, angry, and scared and nothing ever seems to get better. It is difficult feeling like I cannot trust one of my teachers now. I am supposed to be safe at the school, but how can I be if they just offer us up to angry, unsocialized terrorists? Your Rasa FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Mon, June 24, 2013, 6:32am SUBJECT: Re: News It is okay to be angry, but please do not be scared. Things will change because they always do. We will make them change into better things. What happened with Thea was very strange. I do not remember all of it and I am sorry I could not understand. I do not want to be back in that place where I do not feel like myself even if I did not know it. I am wondering if she can help me learn how to not get so overwhelmed. But this is something I want to try to find out very carefully and with people there so that nothing bad will happen. I do not know if she had meant to kidnap me. I have not told people this but I had dreams of where I went and the wasp people before I went there. A few days before that. I did not know what they were then. I wanted to go even if I did not know why. Slowly that became more important and that is not good, I know that, but maybe I was just looking forward to family and... I do not know. I am sorry. I think part of it was my own mistake for not having enough control yet. I do not always agree with people, and I do not know if I agree with Mr. Jackson. But I do not think we should be angry or scared because people might want us to do a thing. We can ignore that part of them and still see the good parts because we can make our own decisions for us. I know it is difficult some times. I am looking forward to being back. I hope things will be better for you soon. Find a person to talk to. Maybe the new students do not yet know about you being amazing. Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Tues, June 25, 2013, 9:57am SUBJECT: Re: News I am sorry that I have not written in a while. I had to take some time to process what you wrote. I forget sometimes that I am not a child at the mercy of adults, who tell me what to do and shape my entire life. I don't really feel like I am an adult yet, so it's really hard just to be able to sit still and let an adult's opinion on a really crucial topic go without believing it is something that is /going/ to happen and I'm going to have to /fight/ to make it stop. I am sorry. Feel like I am fighting everything. Feel like I have been fighting with teachers, students, my friends and even myself. It's hard, and I'm tired. I spoke with Peter. It was him with the train. He sprained both of his ankles trying to kick the train ... to stop it. He realizes how silly that was, after the fact, but I don't know if that means anything. Felt a bit like I was bullying him into being more careful. Felt bad about that, but he said it was good for him. Like I was raining on his funeral march or something. I think he said he'd email you, but. I don't remember. Maybe he already did? Why did I sign up for summer classes again? Ugh. More later, Your Rashka FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Wed, June 26, 2013, 5:59am SUBJECT: Re: News I think it is easy to forget we are people some times. Because we are in a school and the adults are supposed to be smarter than us and teach us things. But some times they do not know better, and it is important to remember. Do not be sorry. I like that you fight things. People think I am very passive, and I do not know if I always am, but I like that you are not. Rashka, I liked you when I first saw you even if I did not speak to you because you are smart. You do not accept it when something is the way you do not want it to be. But please do not make yourself too tired with fights that do not need to happen. I do not know how to hug a puddle if you are a tired puddle when I get back. Peter will learn. He will learn really slowly but he will learn. He wants to be a hero. Maybe he is already. But it means people have to remind him that not only other people need to be saved. Some times... a lot of the times he is also in danger with them. I hope he learns before it is too late. I miss you. If I was there I would ask to join all of your classes with you. Almost the whole family says hello and to wish you all of the best. Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Wed, June 26, 2013, 7:39am SUBJECT: Re: News You are allowed to have your own classes, Vanya, but I appreciate the thought. And fear not, I will always find a way to hug you. If I am too puddly, I will resolidify the moment you touch me so I can wrap myself around you and keep you close. I am going to start being a peer tutor now. I promised Shane that I would help him get through his history class. Then we're going to watch Dead Snow (or Død Snø as it possibly marketed where you are at). I figure that if we're going to have to talk about nazis for a while, we might as well enjoy them as zombie nazis afterward. It seemed to cheer him up. Also, there's a new librarian. She's red. Her brother the chemistry instructor is gray. Apparently, he's smoke-like. She's got a tail, but it's not as awesome as Kurt's so I'm keeping his. Not much else to say about school. How is work? Who in the family is not saying hi to me? Is this a thing they did on purpose, or is one person just being weird and not saying hi. Sorry. I am being paranoid because I don't want your family to hate me. I'm much better with disinterest. Please say it's disinterest? R FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Thurs, June 27, 2013, 6:02am SUBJECT: Re: News It is called Операция Мёртвый снег here, which is very boring. Operation Dead Snow. Sometimes Russian titles will be puns but this one is not. Maybe I will watch it with family too. Work is not difficult but very tiring. My arms and my shoulders hurt. I leave very early to walk there and Lev picks me up very late. Some times the other people stop early and hide from the superior on the floor above the one I have been working to drink. They are very friendly. Rashka. They were only not saying hello because they were not here. Everything I have told them about you so far were good things and they want to meet you very badly. I have not told them very much about your family, or when you were a boy. I hope you are not angry with me because I have not lied. I do not want to keep information from them but I do not think they will understand. Especially my parents and Zhenya, my oldest brother. I think I will tell them on the last day. Be well. Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Thurs, June 27, 2013, 1:59pm SUBJECT: Re: News Vanya, are you sneaking off and drinking with your coworkers, or are you doing all their work for them because you are the new kid? I don't know if either of these is a good option. I like beer and all, but drinking with adults is kind of o.O. You don't really need to tell them anything about me if you feel it will make them uncomfortable. I realize you have a better relationship with your parents than I do and you want to share with them. My experience is more that of - the less my parents know, or the less people know of my parents, the better. I am sorry for being insecure. I hope you don't mind. I am just not used to being liked, so when it happens, it is nice and special. Do you normally watch zombie horror movies with your family? I am heading into the city for the weekend. I have learned that we will be watching the fireworks from the roof of the loft apartments. I hope they are glorious and well timed with wonderful music. We should figure out another time to skype. I miss your face and your voice. I miss the rest of you too, but I focus on the things that can come to me electronically. Is there anyone at the school you wish me to send greetings to? OH! Ducky says I can practice my telepathy on her. She is curious as to what her birds sound like to other people. We have only agreed to do it, so I will tell you more afterward. Much love, Rasa FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Fri, June 28, 2013, 6:16am SUBJECT: Re: News I am not drinking. They have offered but I did not accept. The superior knows and he will pay them less this month. They do not know this. So I work longer and get more money. You are liked very much. It is common in Russia here to be very quiet with the things you do not wish everyone to know, but I do not like secrets with family or friends. So I do not plan to keep this one. But I will wait and try to time it correctly. My siblings watch a lot of movies. Many Russian movies and what is not Russian originally has voice over. There is some times a lot of violence in these movies, but some times not. Maybe this Christmas we can watch Ирония судьбы, или С лёгким паром, or the Irony of Fate. It is very strange but with a lot of culture in it. It is very slow but it is tradition for a lot of Russian people to watch it every year with their family or partner. Send greetings to everyone. I miss sitting and eating lunch there. And classes. And taking care of my pets. And hearing everyone speak about things that are happening. Some times it was too much but I miss the observing of so many people. But if I was there I would probably just fall asleep leaning on you. I am tired. And late for work also. Yes we will Skype in the evening for me? I will ask if I can borrow the computer then because it is mostly busy but now I have to go. Enjoy the fireworks if they happen before I email again. Ivan FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Fri, June 28, 2013, 10:59am SUBJECT: Re: News The Fireworks aren't until the 4th of July, Ivan. I will be available around 8pm your time for an hour or so. Talk to you then. Rasa