ArchivedLogs:NOT PANICKING or being depressed

NOT PANICKING or being depressed
Dramatis Personae Ivan, Rasa	2013-07-26 After -after- the Morlock Raids
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FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Thursday, July 25, 2013, 8:55pm SUBJECT: Ivan. Peter, Shane, Sebastian, Anole, and some other kid were attacked in the sewers by robots and soldiers. Mr. Holland is in the med bay in terrible shape from this too. I... everything is wrong. I can't help them. Can't be there. Can't protect. Can't stop this. Can't handle it any more. What's the point? Everyone and everything wants us dead or in labs. I can't fight. I'm just fooling myself. Either I stay at the school and watch people coming limping back, or I go out where I could possibly die too. What's the point? What is the fucking point? Don't know how to do this anymore. Please say you are okay? Don't be dead. Rasa FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Friday, July 26, 2013, 5:31am SUBJECT: Re: Rasa. Please do not panic. Everything is going to be okay. I am sorry I did not reply sooner because I was asleep. Nothing is wrong, things are only terrible but some times this happens. And then they stop being terrible. I hope. The point is you are safe. Are you safe? Please be safe. What was in the sewers? I can come back. Should I come back? FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Thursday, July 25, 2013, 10:35pm SUBJECT: Re: Why would you want to be here? Everything is falling apart and people are getting attacked and incarcerated. No. Stay where you are safe. It's better that way. People live in the sewers, people who are physical mutants that can't live up in the city and have no where else to go. The others were visiting That is where Anole ... oh. You probably don't remember Anole. He was at the dance. Green skin. You were... lost then. Barely there. I am safe. No one has been hurt at the school. FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Friday, July 26, 2013, 5:41am SUBJECT: Re: Stay at the school. Is Peter okay? And the rest? I want to be there because you are there. Not being there is making me nervous and I do not like being nervous. I am not often nervous. And when I am nervous I want to fix what the thing is that is making me nervous. I want to fix it but I am too far away. Work and money is not more important than making sure you are okay. Do you have someone to talk with? Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Thursday, July 25, 2013, 10:44pm SUBJECT: Re: Peter is fine. The others are okay. Jax in the Med Bay, no one else, except when visiting. You should stay. You will be back soon. Must convince your parents that you are not going to be in danger by not worrying in front of them. If you worry too much and be nervous, they won't let you see me. Please don't be nervous. I don't want you to be anything but okay. Maybe happy, but not unokay. Fuck. I'm just... not typing well. Sorry. I will not leave the school. I will be physically okay. I... am talking to you. FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Friday, July 26, 2013, 5:53am SUBJECT: Re: Physically okay is not enough. Do you have classes? Please do not be afraid to find a teacher if you do not want classes if you have classes. Or to talk with. Or students. Is Shelby still not at the school? Talking is good because it can distract you from the bad things that have happened and you can give attention to the good things that can happen. My parents have already noticed something is not good. But I am trying to not be nervous. They are also asking if you are okay and I am saying that you will be. They are asking if you have food and are you eating and do you have someone to maybe fight with to make yourself feel better. Not a real fight, but to spar. This was Lev's suggestion, I do not know if it would help. If you were hurt too, I would come back. But you are not. I will try to calm down before I have to leave to work. I would like to know if Mr. Jackson wakes up. Ivan. FROM: rdjalili@xavier.edu TO: idravovich@xavier.edu DATE: Thursday, July 25, 2013, 10:58pm SUBJECT: Re: It is hard to eat when I am upset, but I will drink my protein drinks, I promise. I feel like I have caused you and your family panic. I am sorry. Please apologize for me. There should not be panic. I have hit a heavy bag a lot until my arms and legs were tired. I will maybe try to find a sparring partner like Lev suggests, but not tonight. Maybe Ms. Walters will come with ice cream. Shelby is in the city for the summer. I would have to leave the school to see her. I want a hug... maybe from anyone, but it is weird. I was not hurt. I am just very tired of this horrible world and how it treats people I care about. Please have a good day at work and tell your family, 'thank you.' Stay safe, Vanya FROM: idravovich@xavier.edu TO: rdjalili@xavier.edu DATE: Friday, July 26, 2013, 6:11am SUBJECT: Re: Rashka, I will hug you when I am back. Everything will be okay. You do not need to apologise. My father has gone away to his work and my mother only wishes you good things. I will save up hugs for you and give them to you when I get back, and Mr. Jackson will be awake again and everyone will be safe at the school. If you want me to come back early I can come back early. I can do that. There is more world outside the school, more world that is not horrible. We will see. My mother and Lev and Regina and Nadya say you are beautiful and to find a thing to enjoy in your day. Stay safe too, please. Ivan.